Life's Unexpectations

today was like real freaking hell for me or maybe for almost everyday.after school eunice and i sat at the canteen seats.aross us was berlinda,rachel,jia hui,hanping,yingxi.then a few minutes later,eunice told me she kind of heard hanping asking the rest if they wanted to talk to us too.but i do not know what's their answer was.they did not come to us either.then i was like thinking,"am i so unapproachable?if you want to come and talk to me just go ahead,i'm at all ears!''

i do not know why people fel that i am so unapproachable.boredom and unacceptance is all i felt ever since i stepped into 3e4.what i really hate is when we have to do grp project work.everybody just got settled down,but eunoice and i just simply do not know who to form grp with.everytime when this happens,i just feel like breaking down and cry.i feel like such an outcast.actually i dreaded coming to school.i hate to face all the negative feelings i have to endure everyday.people say everyday is a brand new day.but never for me.to me,everyday is the same,i'm not accepted,unapproachable,anti-social...

do you THINK I'M REALLY LIKE THAT? everyone have their own cliques in class but why can't i? yesterday and today i really cried.because i really can't stand it anymore.every second in school is like a torture for me.i hide my feelings up as i wanted to appear cheerful and more approachable.i had already tried so hard to socialise with more girls in 3e4,but that does not seem to work at all. yes,they indeedtalked to me more than ever,i must say,but somehow during grp project i'm still the same as before.i really think...not helps at all.

* all that ends just end instantly,whether you want it or not.life's just like that.everything's against your will.when you thought you already had it,it just vanishes like that. no warning,no signs. ~

wait till the flowers blossom,we'll meet, and fly.we'll be just like the same as before.unchangeble.