i do not want to go back to the start

i do not wish to be hurt again.i do not want to go back to the start.i had just escaped from the clutches. i don't want to cry myself to sleep everynight. but the feeling is coming back again.i'm listening to those saddening songs that remind me of him again. NO!!!

i feel stupid of myself.why didn't i just held on tight?but every moment i feel like being pricked by numerous needles. time passed,but why did you return back to my memory? cant those memories just fade?

you're the one who made an impact in my life.
you're the one who took away my happiness.