it's over - onwards.

this week has been a complicated week.my feelings are entangled.

now, i "officially" announce the separation of tastii freaks. actually,our friendship should have ended eons ago. just that we did not bother to talk about it. beginning of the week, they* went for recess without eunice and i. i think it's already an obvious hint that they do not want to be with us. on wednesday night, i received their sms, saying that eunice and i can go to school without them the following day, as they would be late. i knew it;they just wanna draw a line between them and us. on thursday, they were extremely early; i don't think it's late,cuz i just reached the meeting place at that time. so i told them to go to school without us first. cuz seeing them gave me complex feelings in the beginning. but now it's quite okay. we still smile sometimes when we run into one another in school. i hope that we can still be normal friends, though i don't know what the future has in hold for me. i believe that all the starts well should ends well. yah.unable to find a group of lifelong goodfriends,i'm willing to overlook that. i'm sorry that i cannot be a perfect friend to them. i know time will make all feelings fade. i've already accepted the truth, and moved on.

will the future be bleak? i don't know. but i'm trying harder to make things,at least, more acceptable. the path to finding more true friends will not be smooth. but i'll pray hard to the God i believe in in every step i take. i don't want a lonely life. i don't want to be trapped in the cell anymore. i want to mingle with everyone. brighten up everyone's life if possible.i want to be a social butterfly. not an earthworm which hides in the soil.

the journey starts now.

-- the quiet US. i wanna get close to YOU.
i wanna find someway to stand beside YOU.

i'll live well, for the many yous.




it's the second week of the year.