school's reopened

yah,school's reopened. both happy and sad.why. happy was that i would not get bored anymore. sad was because i'm making myself again vulnerable to sadness. but this week was still alright, though i'm feeling that i am faking a smile everyday.but maybe that's a better attitude one should have in school ;by smiling.

yesterday was GREAT. a breakthrough. i came to discover what i really wanted and what i need to go after. especially once i poured out my thoughts to a third-party, he told me exactly the things to forsake and things to grab. what he told me made me knew immediately not to hold on to the past, and to proceed further, go after what's worth it, and let go things that had already long gone. finally i knew what i need. someone to tell me straight at the face about what to do next. thanks, brother.

well, i never came to think that 2006 would be such a busy year. as the o's are approaching, piles of homework are given. not to mention revision too. i don't even have the time to rest after school. once i reach home everyday, the amount of homework needed to be completed will surface on my mind. then it's like every minute i am rushing with whatever things i'm doing. and now i love weekends ALOT. i hope my hard work will pay in the end; with results eligible for JC. i'd set a goal for o's, that is to get 11pts or less for L1R5. and i'll work hard to acheive this goal.
English: A2 (C5)
Emaths:A1 (A2)
Amaths:B3 (B4)
Combined Human:A1 (A2)
Chinese:A1 (A2)
Physics:A2 (B4)
Chemistry:A2 (B4)

i yearn to leave this school as soon as i can, and never to come back. i really HATE this school. its atmosphere. its people. its everything. all these stress me up! but what can i do? i'm stucked, and have to stick with it until after the o's. actually i hate this school since primary five. during the release of the posting of schools in primary six, i was elated; i donno why. maybe because i managed to get into the same school with royston and cunjie? but see what happens now. we never talk anymore. no one can ever know what had happened to me the last three years. suffered so much! haiz... just blame myself for being unlucky...